I’m drowning again
I’m suffocating, choking on the putrid waters
Each arm stroke is weighted down with another rope
The ropes of regret. Of remorse, of fear
Bottle after bottle, I drown myself’ in fake bliss
Hoping the bottle will float me along the ocean of despair
I never reach the shoreline I never catch a breath of air
I skim the surface gasping only the reef of solitude
People fill the waters but not hand do I know
Not a hand reaches for me
I silently bob in between life and death
The darkness of life the darkness of chains
The chaos of my own mind
As I sit in my chair, in a world full of people
Who know not how to save,
But how to drown my sorrows away
And hide them from the light
Pushing them further into my deep seated fear
Pushing them out in streaming tears
Will I save myself?
From this pain and agony, from this lifeless world
That bubbles me in a barrier of silence
A barrier that no one can or wants to break
A barrier of painful solitude
That in my ear, whispers away