What happens if I do not wake tomorrow

But lay in an eternal slumber?

Who’s eyes would fill with tears

That would fall to a bitter end?

Who would latch onto my arm

Yelling my name into my lifeless ears?

What happens if this eternal slumber

Was unknowing and fast

There was no time to say goodbyes

No time to heal the hurtful words of past

What happens when this eternal slumber

Breaks down your foundation of strength?

Your hands gently touch my face

And you fall to your knees

You heart shredding in pain

What happens when this eternal slumber

Breaks apart your blissful life

You no longer find happiness

You no longer laugh in the wind

What happens when this eternal slumber

Doesn’t move you from your spot

You stand there with no emotion

You stand there in no strife

What happens when this eternal slumber

Was just a test of you?

And with your actions you failed horribly

And have shown me what I must do

The loneliness of despair

The solitude of grief

The depressive state of being

Pushing forth through the masses unnoticed

Invisible

Intolerant views of words

Speaking the truth to deaf ears of the wise

Only to be burdened with ties of lies

The heart in truth does not lie

The words of truth are not lies

The lies are the form of evil and deception

Where in a soul that’s pure and light

Do not exist on the tongue

Insanity ensues as the solitude grows

Not insanity from an illness

But insanity from seclusion and hermitage

Walking the path of innocence and truth

Leads to words being rebuked and shunned

No longer feeling the last grasp of happiness

The veins bleed in pure bliss

The freedom of death knocking at the bathroom door

What does my heart yearn for more

To live or to die

To exist or to rise

The evolutionary trials of man’s hate

Echo through my mind’s eye

I know now what my fate shall be

But it only exists in infinity

I’m drowning again

I’m suffocating, choking on the putrid waters

Each arm stroke is weighted down with another rope

The ropes of regret. Of remorse, of fear

Bottle after bottle, I drown myself’ in fake bliss

Hoping the bottle will float me along the ocean of despair

I never reach the shoreline I never catch a breath of air

I skim the surface gasping only the reef of solitude

People fill the waters but not hand do I know

Not a hand reaches for me

I silently bob in between life and death

The darkness of life the darkness of chains

The chaos of my own mind

As I sit in my chair, in a world full of people

Who know not how to save,

But how to drown my sorrows away

And hide them from the light

Pushing them further into my deep seated fear

Pushing them out in streaming tears

Will I save myself?

From this pain and agony, from this lifeless world

That bubbles me in a barrier of silence

A barrier that no one can or wants to break

A barrier of painful solitude

That in my ear, whispers away