Here is an email I will never send
Layering my tastebuds with bitter lament
Angry and relieved
At times hard to breathe
With every word ever spoken
As each promise and swear is broken
Ringing in deafening tones
Lonesome but harrowing moans
As I replay every I love you
And roll over every I miss you
Just to learn freedom was your wish
And I was your enslaved bitch
That believed to the very essence you walked on water
And now as I am drowning away you have sauntered
To a life without me in it
Another promise you never meant
I begin to wonder if any of it was true
Or a spell that you thought wouldn’t undo
And to your dismay it quickly unraveled
And I saw the truth come down with the gavel
I was just a whore to keep you company at night
And to war I would gladly go to fight
I feel like a game that you loved to abuse
And I ate it up not knowing the ruse
I was one of many to be played
My heart strung up on your shelf to display
And what I had given you I never got back
When it was your pride and ego under attack
And now I am scattered across the floor
Broken into pieces, feeling like the whore
When I loved you with more than you ever really gave
And the more I loved the more I craved
But you never really wanted me to be yours
It was just something you did with all of us whores
Every word you ever said was really a lie
And once again I won’t hit send to give you a goodbye
K.H. ©️ 2021
An email I will never send
